Awake or sleeping?

I feel like I haven't slept in days even though I did sleep, my mind is trapped somewhere between dream and reality, I'm not sure I enjoy being there but it's my own way of dealing with things perhaps. I wish I could do what I did when I was a kid and things worried me too much, I'd go for long walks in the dark until my head emptied itself of worries and I felt fine for a while.
I don't feel bad, that's the thing, I'm just worried about someone I love that's really fighting for his life and I know what he's going through affects so many lives right now and it freezes me, it truly takes me to places I'm not ready to go to. It makes me stare at something from my past that I desperately tried to avoid for years on. But all of this is happening because that cancer thing forces me to look at things in a way I never did before. The human mind is like a long road that's both arrow and wide and doesn't seem to end, it always leads somewhere even when you think you've lost your way, even when you don't know where you're going you'll get somewhere. That's what I'm doing within myself these days. Such a complicated process.

Life is what it is.

I'm neglecting my blog, I'm slacking but blame it all on life and that last.fm account that seems to be my new addiction.

But life's been a bit hectic lately. Within 5 hours my emotions went from happiness to sadness. My brother that I haven't seen since last June because he's in the army and was posted in Paris (talk about a bad posting heh, lucky guy!)had a special permission to come over in Canada and spend two days here before going to Russia for a few days and then get ready to live in The Netherlands for the next three years. I was happy that I had the chance to see him even though he couldn't bring his wife and kids along with him. But the happy moment turned into sadness when we got a call about my mother's partner being rushed to the hospital, seems his pancreatic cancer is now generalized and his lungs are filled with water, his belly is all swollen and they don't know if he's gonna get out of the hospital and make it or if death will take his soul. I'm not sure how I feel right now, I was happy, I felt sad and now I'm numb.

The Last Shadow Puppets

Who knew an album made in 2008 could sound so 60-ish!

Many artists were able to put a 60's vibe in their sound but I've never heard something that trully seemed to come from that era before I heard the album made by The Last Shadow Puppets (member includes Artic Monkeys' Alex Turner). There's a real retro feel to their music, sometimes I could hear a bit of scouser music in there (think of the Coral) and to my great pleasure there's an orchestra that gives another dimension to their sound. Summer's coming, it lurks around the corner so this record is perfect for those days in the sun, and if it rains than just play the album and there's gonna be a room full of sunshine.

Favourites are:

The Age of the Understatement
Calm Like You
Separate and Ever Deadly
Only the Truth
I Don't Like You Anymore

Habs officially go play golf and soccer

So it ended last night, my Habs had a wonderful season that was a thousand times better than anyone expected it to be but the second round of the playoffs leaves a bittersweet feeling that's hard to swallow. What didn't allow us to go any further was Price, our young goalie. A veteran goalie by his side would have been a great help in the series. Obviously the mental pressure was too much for him to take at such a young age. The team in front of him played pretty good but the goalie is part of the team so if a goalie cannot perform at 100% and lets the pucks enter easily in the net without a fight then you're in for a disaster. From what I've seen in this series, if the goalie did the job as expected of him, my Habs deserved a shot at the next round. What a team needs to move on has to do with lots of hard work and lots of chance. Chance definitely wasn't on our this time around. Next year....maybe!
Now the Flyers won and I can name two reasons why they did:Biron, the goalie was both good and lucky, and R. J Umberger. Umberger didn't score that often in the regular season but in the series it seems he's always there at the right spot to shot the puck in the net. I do think the Flyers are gonna need a lot more than luck to beat the Penguins (ok, they haven't officially won yet, the Rangers are still in for now but in case the Penguins do win, which they should do today). Pittsburgh has an incredibly gifted team of young players and they have about all it takes to win the Stanley Cup. Although I root for Dallas to win the cup I certainly acknowledge the greatness of the Penguins, they're on a mission to win and unless something really bad happens they should be the winner in the eastern conference.