A blog's like a diary so I guess this is the perfect place for me to ramble on about cancer, about what it's doing to a man I dearly love.
Knowing you have pancreatic cancer is getting a death sentence, there's no cure for it and the disease spreads at an incredible pace within a short amount of time.
This man that I so dearly love was so full of life, he walked almost 3 hours daily, he went bicycling anytime he had the chance to, he was active from the moment he woke up until he went to bed. I'm using the past tense because he can no longer do any of those things, just walking 5 minutes is now much too hard.
There's nothing worst than knowing you can't do a thing to ease the suffering of someone you love, there's nothing worst than looking in the eyes of someone and seeing their desperation, seeing that they live in pain and in fear of what's ahead. How useless we can be when those situations arise, how thin the line is between life and death, how fragile life really is, no matter how strong we think we are, we're nothing but skin and bones in the end. Lately, it's as if death was lurking around and I'm afraid of it, I'm afraid of it taking that man away because he lived his life being such a good man, always being there to help others out and it's so unfair, it really is. Others go through life doing awfully wrong things and just enjoy their lives while good people get death sentences. For now all that counts is that he's still here among us, every day's like a gift. It just makes me sad, it really gets to me.
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Life is so unfair sometimes, but I'm certain those unfair things are there to remind us of why we find them to be unfair in the first place. Not that it's any help to the situation you find yourself in. Even though no one involved can cure it, the only thing you can do is make it easier. Doing that makes it so much easier for everyone in the long run.
A big warm hug for you my friend.
Its the only thief that we can't lock away for good..so unfair. Be brave and show your support and do whatever you have to do to make it easier for both.
A big HUG from a far away friend..
Lostinside.
Thanks ladies.
You're both right, I know I can't do much than be there for him and let him know what he means to me.
I just have a hard time KNOWING what's to come for him. If there's any justice at all then I just hope he goes away before he suffers too much.
so unfair.
And now he can't even drive, the poor man's gonna go insane.
Actually he can't be left alone anymore.
How sad! It's so hard to see love ones suffer. :*( There's nothing to do but hope & pray for the very best. Be there for him in any way you possibly can. Every moment counts.
Sending an enormous hug your way,
m
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